mental highjack

Well, I received two more emails this morning, informing me that I did not get an interview. I'm slightly confused by these emails because when I apply, I get an email confirming and it states that I will not receive another email unless I'm going to be given an interview....yet lo and behold I have probably opened at least 8 emails that have told me I'm not getting an interview.

I'm going to assume that I at least was in a group that was a step closer to an interview? maybe? who knows...either way, these emails kill me because I get my hopes up when I see the non-generic looking email that I get about 10 times a day from the jobs I've applied to. It makes it all the more disappointing.

So after applying to some more jobs...because hey that is my job, I decided to mentally highjack myself and clean my floors, and dust, and clean the walls, and do laundry, all while listening to music. It did make me feel a little more in control of my life. If you feel like a complete failure, clean your floors, it makes you feel like a whole new woman.

This process is wearing on me. I keep assuring Pat that I will not give up...I know it takes time and I will keep trying, but I will continue to complain about it.